Baby you were used

Used by all those men and women
That claim they ran through you
Used hurt and crying alone
After they all said that they loved you
How they would do anything for you
Baby you were used.
Played like a fuckin fool
And more worked like a fuckin tool
Load on your back
Your a fuckin mule
Used over and over to fill voids they were all missing
You hit them up later just to double check, just wishing
You feel lost…. no purpose… back to worthless
Thinking how they never really wanted you
Never really loved you
Lonely and tryna figure out yo purpose
Baby you were used
Lonely nights endless fights
All this agression puts you into flight
Now you full of vengence
Doin shit outta spite
Its not really you but you wanna make it right
Heart is broken
Feelings are stolen
You were once so kind
With the innocence of a childish mind
Now your grown
With no one to hold
Cant callem your own
Baby you were used
Taken for granted
While growing up mind being abused
By family friends and the media too
All these things got you wrapped into not knowing you
The potential you have and things you can really do
Make your mark
Let em wish they didnt do that to you
Speak your mind…keep preaching the truth
When they ask how u got there
Dont be afraid to tell them
Baby I was used.


Friends friends

Dont have friends
Stick to your self
And make yo ends
Every one is fake
Dont letem in
Youll be back at square one
On the look out for more
Leave it alone while you can or youll be sore
Im talkin deep within your core
Keep yo wall up
Keep your business private
Trust me been there …tried it
Soon as you spill your beans
Theyll be running round town feeding the whole team
Im tryna save you
You can trust me
After all we’re friends now
Cant you see
Ive been so honest from the jump
Im different from the rest
Im the friend you dont wanna dump
You obviously didnt listen the first time
Now you feel played because I just hurt you
Its okay its what we all go through
Thats the shit they all say
He he he! all in your face
So do yo shit
Trust me youll see
Friends till the end
Bullshit !
Take it from me


​What do you feel

When its just you and the mirror
The shower fog goes away and its getting clearer
You feel alone
Because you have no one to talk to
The love feeling is gone
Because your heart doesnt know how to
Running so long now you face your self
You break down and cry
And you’re wondering why
You feel so ugly and disgusting inside
You know you should love yourself
But you have nothing left
Insecurities come out
All you do is pout
You want to cut again
The route no one can win
You feel low and it shows
Embarrassed because you think someone may know
Trying to hide it
Til the tears become less
Someone comes along and says you’re worthless
But who are you to put a price on me
I am the only one who passes judgement  on me
So am I worthless?
Or is that just what they all see
Because of my lack of security
Oh how I wiiish this wasn’t me
I break down to my knees
How the fuck do I get comfortable
Being just me
Im worthless?
Thats the label they gave me.


​When shes hurt

When shes alone
When her thoughts are all she knows
When its dark
And when its cold
She looks for someone to hold
She wants affection
And shes tired of agression
Full of rage
And her heart is locked in a cage
Everyone who had her
Had done her wrong
No family and no friends
Just drugs, drinking and making her ends
Fuck it all is all that she says
As she drinks and smokes
To numb it all
She falls
The floor is cold
A feeling she all to well knows
She runs
When the drugs no longer work
When her heart wont stop the hurt
When her problems are to much
When time is at its crunch
She runs
Til she simply can’t
A girl fragile, like a plant
Words do kill
They are sharp ass blades of steel
She’s lost herself
And doesn’t know the first place to look
She runs
In hopes to find her…
She runs.


​Some people just have no clue what they are talking about …. he dont like you based off of a discrepancy…he dont know you… he dont know anything … he dont know us… he dont know life…they just say shit… how is it that everything and everyone is so judgmental…not knowing shit… not even knowing themselves but trying to say and tell you who you are…dont tell her shit…u havent walked in her shoes… you dont know where she comin from or where she’s going…she’s walked so long and just wants a glass of water…yet instead you give her lip… you affect her even more than the others have…she is beginning to see that no one,not even he…cares…about her quinch for love affection and joy… he doesn’t know that now…she is awakened now…she is no longer… is her…and her is…is…ready…to begin a new life…full of water .


​I know this gone kill me

It may eat me alive
But I’ve decided
To keep my feelings and emotions inside
Everytime you leave
It makes me want to cry
You feel like I shouldn’t
But honestly if I knew how
I wouldn’t
I guess if I pretend that I don’t care
It’ll hurt less
I hate having this feeling
Just sitting on my chest
You no longer need to worry
About me and my attitude
I’ll just chill and let you do you
I’ll hope for the best

Hold on while I put my emotions to rest
Just having the time I do get
Is what I’ll settle for
I can only do so much
I can’t do any more
I realize that now
As of now I remain emotionless.


​So many emotions

But yet nothing to feel
My heart is in need
Of something that just isnt real
I cant move
Even if i tried
Im simply stuck in the groove
I say i dont care
But you feel my lie
Its something about
how you look into my eyes
You say that youll love me
You’ll never let me go
Buh even my nieve heart
Knows its just for show
One day our day will come
When we have to part ways
My love for you however
Will always remain
Ill remember our first time
The next mornings first gaze
Ill think of how i felt
When you called me your babee
Ive created a relationship with you
That ill never forget
When its over
My heart will have to rest
All of the emotions
that were here for you
Stored deep within my chest
Of things that I long for
And will never forget